God is doing something in me. I am not quite sure yet what it is, but it is so sweet.
I am fresh out of a season where I felt close to God, but had a hard time getting into His word. I was feeling grateful, blessed, and was talking or praying to him daily. But actually sitting down and making time to read the Bible was low on my priority list.
I wasn’t completely detached. I would fit it in one or two times a week, but those other five days I wasn’t even trying. It was such a strange place to be. I didn’t feel terrible, but I certainly didn’t feel good either.
Towards the end of this phase I started to pray fervently that God would give me the desire and thirst to read His word again. If you know God then you know that often times he blows you away with how He chooses to answer prayers.
It didn’t happen right away, but slowly I began to fit Him in every single day. It started as a good consistency. A daily routine I was excelling at. Then ever so sweetly it turned into something I longed for. I found myself anxiously waiting to read His word each day. I was no longer spending ten minutes doing a study to simply get it checked off my list. I was wanting to dig deeper, learn more, and enjoying every sweet moment.
It’s been far too long since I have been in this place. I have been here before, but left for a time. In my life it’s been a recurring cycle. This time feels different. Something is happening. God is working and I cannot wait to see what He does.
If you’re in that waiting season, wishing you had the desire to do more than just check Him off your list… keep going. Continue to meet with him. Keep coming back day after day. Ask Him to be there, to meet you and change your heart. He will. He always does. He is a God of constant grace. Such sweet sweet grace. He is worth it.
“…being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.”
~ Philipians 1:6