It is hard to become a mom and not be infinitely changed. When Nora was born, a place in my heart that I didn’t even know was empty, was filled. This little person that didn’t exist in our lives before, suddenly arrives and changes everything.
I am not the same woman I used to be. I will never be that woman again. Through this journey I have learned so much about myself already. These are the lessons Nora taught me.
I can do much more than I ever thought possible. Becoming a mom has, at times, stretched me so thin I think I will break. There are times I don’t think I can make it through even the next hour, let alone to the next day. But, I always end up surviving. I live to tell the tale on the other side and laugh in those moment’s face. Nora has taught me that I am strong and that “this too shall pass.”
Happiness is everywhere. There is something about having a baby around that just changes your perspective on things. To Nora, the cup on the coffee table is fascinating and the hat on her daddy’s head is hilarious. Seeing things through her eyes and with her pure joy for life, brings more wonderment to my life as well. Nora loves to feel the buttons on my shirt, watching her do that makes me smile. Nora steals the glasses of Collin’s face and we laugh and laugh. Nora has taught me that joy can be found in all things.
Love is ever-changing. I thought I understood the love for a child when Nora was born. I instantly bonded with her and loved her with my whole heart. But my love for her now, is not the same as my love for her then. As Nora grows, she develops that little personality of hers. As I see that personality of hers form, my love for her grows and changes. Now, I don’t just love her because she is my daughter, I love her for specifics. I love her fervor when she plays. I love that she is quick to smile. I love her tenacity when she really wants something. I love her sweet spirit, she is always open to a cuddle or kiss. Nora has taught me that my love as her mom will only continue to grow.
This little girl, the tiny sweet gal that has only been in our lives for eight short months, has already changed me for good. I will never be the same. And I never want to be the same again.